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Not so good.

I haven’t been doing so well this last week. I don’t know quite what happened, I think it’s a combination of a lot of things. Time of year, weather, fatigue. Hormones. Whatever it was that triggered it is kind of irrelevant, the end result is the same.

I feel bad. I feel tired, lethargic, self-sabotaging. I feel sad, disinterested, I haven’t been a very good parent. Instead of planning fun activities to wile away the rainy days, I have been sneaking naps on the couch, palming the girls off with dvd’s and watching the clock as we get close to bedtime. Not because I want them to go to bed, but more because I want to go to bed myself.

Usually when I feel like this its best to surround myself with friends and activities, but even this hasn’t helped much this week. I think I needed to get to this point before I could have a deep, dark chat with myself and pull myself towards myself.

I am feeling a bit better today, more relaxed and engaged. I have a photoshoot tomorrow morning which I am looking forward to and then I am hoping to spend a much needed day as a family, just together, making plans, playing, spending time with each other. My plans for next week include a serious adjustment to my eating plan, light meals, lots of water, high protein, low carb. I have indulged myself too much these last few days and I feel bloated and uncomfortable. Boot camp this morning was torture but I did manage a run last week as well.

More importantly than pushing myself right now is to be gentle with myself. I need to show myself more love and less disappointment and I need to be accountable. That’s where you come in. Make me accountable internet, please…….

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