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On my mind
Amy’s illustration of our family, I drew ME second from left then she completed the picture.

I am so exhausted. I am comparing this feeling of complete weariness to back when Stella was a newborn. I have had the same kind of broken, stressful sleep over the last week or so and now my body is starting to protest as well as my mood and general demeanor. The sleeplessness is a combination of various factors which have lead to me being awake for long stretches in the middle of the night.

Lining up to race down the pathway at Playgroup, favourite activity.

Stella has been unsettled at night thanks to the ongoing molars that she is growing, top right has all four points now, top left only the outside is out and the bottom two are straining through. Actually she is doing really well considering what is going on in her mouth but she is still up during the night and its taking its toll on me. Ron is usually much better at settling Stella than I am but even he isn’t able to baby whisper her back to sleep so I sit up with her until the nurofen kicks in and she settles again. Anywhere from 30 minutes to an hour.

Amy tearing down the pathway, best fun ever, H&S be damned. (Health & Safety!)

This wouldn’t be a problem if I wasn’t stressing over our busted hot water heater and the cost of getting it replaced along with an assortment of other worries and concerns including but not limited to: should we send Amy to school next year aged 4 1/2, should I get a nightjob to try and fix our financial situation or should I chase my dreams and try and make this photography business really work? I have been unable to go back to sleep and instead lie in bed for hours thinking and worrying until eventually I fall into an unsettled slumber and wake feeling tired and worn out.

The girls sitting down to fish fingers, baked potatoes and snowpeas at the big table. So grown-up.

Its not all bad though, Ron and I have done some major analysis on our finances and at least we both know exactly where we are in this together. Our hot water heater was an incredibly cheap job thanks to great friends and lucky deals and Stella is so adorable during the day that having to sit up and watch my secret addiction “Eastenders” whilst cuddling with my youngest is not the worst trial. My amazing new chiropractor has adjusted my back, jaw, hips, pelvis, sacrum, shoulders and wrists and I am feeling so much better, I think my mood is changing too because despite not sleeping well and feeling stressed, I am managing my emotions and actually talking about how I feel which is a huge deal for me, I tend to work things over and over in my own head before talking to anyone, even Ron which can be a very negative character trait.

The most positive thing this week is that I have put in the hours on my photography website and I am THIS CLOSE to launching. In fact its actually up and running but until I have my logo finalised and some back posts and photos put up, I am going to keep it under my hat and have a grand launch when I feel ready. Watch this space!

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